A roller coaster

The past three weeks have certainly been a roller coaster. Only 5 weeks ago my daily duties included doing a daily cabin cleanup check and walking around checking on my counselors. The stress level there was preeeeettttty low. I had it good :)
I'm starting to understand why medicine is such a club. I don't consider myself a member of this club yet (and I don't mean it as a status thing. It's more of a camaraderie among people with something in common.) because I'm still at the beginning. Never have I been able to work all day long and still not really have enough time to feel like I've mastered the material. Never have I sat with a group of 6 people in the library with all of us being quiet doing our schoolwork. It's hard to stick out in a group like this.
In one sense it has been such a privilege to be able to study something in such depth that so few people get to experience. And I can admit that although I'm interested in the material, the lectures sometimes go more deeply than my interest would normally take me, but that's the nature of the beast. Do I REALLY want to know every step of the Krebs cycle? well... no not really, but it's probably a good thing that I've learned at least somewhere along the way. Ha.
Anatomy has been amazing so far. I know I'm gonna grow weary of all the hours put into gross anatomy and just as many hours sitting over a cadaver in the gross lab (which is an interesting experience!) and saturday mornings asking questions in the lab to make sure I can identify all of the structures. I know I'm gonna get tired - even the best tell me this. I pray God can give me what I need to keep going.
So far things are going fairly well. I feel kept up for the most part. I've been able to study even despite the fact that I don't have a test for a couple of weeks. Knowing how hard to study can be a battle because I'm trying to maintain some sense of sanity and balance. You really can't know everything. You can't...therefore you just do the best you can. A big adjustment for most in my class.
I know I keep blabbing, but there's just been a lot going on lately. I've been pleasantly surprised by the number of Christians in my class. UMC feels very open to the church and ministry. It's been really encouraging -especially CMDA (christian medical and dental association) which will have Pastor Wheat speaking tomorrow for lunch. I'm pumped...
Well, I think I'm gonna turn in early tonight, but I figured I'd update this thing or else I risk this blog becoming obsolete.
Hope to post more often.