oh Gross!

This is a good day for me my friends...I just took my first gross anatomy test. It is funny how the drama in my life has been reduced to tests.
I think it went well. Things so far have gone well w/school, but that probably has to do with my aims and goals. If my goal was to be in the top 10, well... I might be dissapointed, but anyways.
I really have felt cared about. When everyone in the school knows that "you have a gross test" coming up, and CMDA (christian medical and dental association) brings homemade goodies to the test for when you're halfway done, it is encouraging to know that other people know what you're going through.
Overall, I really am enjoying most everything I've been up to for the last 6 weeks. I can't say that every moment is filled with joy and excitement, but I like it more than I had guessed I would. I tend to expect the worst beforehand for most things. Then I tend to be overoptimistic afterwards (like with a test...ha).
Have you ever felt like life was on hold? I'm trying hard not to do this. It is tempting to say...well, I'm adjusting to things - I'll do "this" when I have time, or when I'm not adjusting anymore. or I'll do "that" next semester, I've got too much on my plate. I really don't want to be at a personal standstill in life right now. It is too easy to do this. With music, with relationships, with church, with God. It is so easy to say - later will be a better time for "this." Certainly this is true with some things. For example - buying a house or traveling to europe is just something I probably shouldn't do right now, but there are a lot of smaller things that I CAN do - so that my life is not on "hold." Otherwise I know one day I am going to wake up when I'm 30 and am going to feel like I haven't even lived. I don't want to think that I'm going to start living when I get out of medical school or get out of residency, or when I get married, or when I am making money (some day far far in the future, ha). I'm called to live RIGHT now, and for some reason that seems hard. Need to start living in the present....